Get out and move
Two nights in a row, because I really want to completely get over being sick. Because I'm trying to get my mental state back into a place of gratitude and everything feeling wonderful. Getting out and moving my body is essential to this process.
Currently my mind exists in a state of despair. Everything around me is broken and sad, and especially so after spending time in the space of last night's walk.
The last time I felt like this was early 2022 on a business trip to Philly. I had COVID then too, though I didn't know it at the time.
There I spent my days in a data center, walking to and from my hotel in absolutely freezing weather. It was the first time I truly noticed and felt despair in a place. Maybe it was just me. Maybe it was the COVID sending my mental state into a place I'd rather not be. But, it's one I know I must patiently wait through because it's all very much worth it on the other side.
Maybe I'm being dramatic. Maybe something is really wrong. In any case, it certainly feels that way in my mind, though I can't think of a very good reason for it. This often happens when I get sick.
Share movement with people you love
Tonight's ruck was shared by a very good friend of mine. Spending time with people I love ... especially outside, and moving through space together ... there is just nothing else like it and it's one of my favorite things in the world.
Life is just as beautiful in the darkness as it is in the light. And while I'd rather spend much more time in the light, in a place of joy, it seems to be important to feel through the darkness to remember just how bright the light can be.
